Wednesday, April 25, 2012
It's been awhile, but don't think I have forgotten about ya'll (notice the Texan slang inserted here)! No I am not a Texan but I am practicing to be one in the near future. Welll folks I may not have been blogging but I sure have been trying to stay on the straight and narrow. I went back to school after Spring Break and was trying to find my groove. the first week was difficult because I could not figure out how I was going to be a mom to four kids, teach all day, and work out and eat right. I won't even lie to you, the first week I was giving in to my old ways. I have always fallen into this mindset...I overeat or eat something not so healthy and immediately tell myself one of two things, "I will start again tomorrow because tonight I am just gonna pig out" or "Well I will ALWAYS be fat I may as well just eat whatever I want". So needless to say, I ran one day the first week back to school and then something happened...my AUNT DEBBIE! My Aunt Debbie is a health fanatic and lover of all things physical fitness. She works out all the time, eats great and has more energy than anyone I have ever met. She loaded me with all kinds of information and motivation when I went to visit and she sent me on my way. I have started up a new training program to help me reach my goal of RUNNING an entire 5K. I know a 5K is only 3.1 miles, but 3.1 miles is alot of miles to me. Right now that is what I am reaching for and hope to be ready in about 6 or 7 more weeks. I am running around 2.5 miles each day (walking is included, don't get it twisted) and I have dropped down this morning to 208.5. I have lost 4.5 pounds since I have been blogging, and I am purrrty proud of myself. I could have probably done better if I wouldn't have been such a SCHMUCK, but I am down anyway. I have to admit I have been flirting with 210 for a few weeks before starting my blog, and had myself almost convinced that I would not get below that. I now have a new weigh goal, "get below 200". Setting the goal smaller is more doable for me and I know I can.
I cannot tell you how accountable I feel knowing there are some of you out there following and know EXACTLy how much my behind weighs. Candy Craig you really put a fire under my butt to get this blog up this week and I truly appreciate it! Thank you MAYJAH ladies for being on my team! Now get your butts in gear too! Let me know what you are doing to make your body healthier..DISH!
Me on my jog yesterday! Running and taking a photo is not an easy task.
Friday, April 6, 2012
Spring Break is almost over..NEED MOMENTUM!
Spring Break is almost over for me, which means I will not have the leisure time to awaken to silence with coffee and mosey on out the door at whatever time is convenient for me to run. I have decided I will be committing to running every evening after school, and because I just told the world that I am going to do it, I HAVE to do it. So every evening I will be running no matter how tired those fourth grade students have made me, I will be just like Forest Gump...RUN-NING! (please use your best impersonation of Forest Gump here, it is wayy funnier)
If you have not already become an official "follower" of my blog..please take a gander at the right hand side of the page and click it to become one. I know there are those of you reading it, but not official yet. Just make it official already, I am a commitment kinda gal..lets go all the way :) Big SHOUT OUT to LaDyK, Christina Sanders, and miazamora for hookin a sister up...I feel the love flowing in!
On another note, I am thinking about what to tell you all every single day. This week has been filled with fun, surprises and accomplishments for me. I have had a FANTASTICAL break with my own kiddos doing stuff that moms do with their kids: library, park, swimming, movies. I have not had much of an opportunity to do this kind of stuff with them on a regular basis because if I was not working full-time, I was going to school and working full-time (I know, my "Mother of The Year" card was revoked many moons ago). On top of all of this utter enjoyment and fascination with my kids, I have been running (some may call it a slow jog) every day. I have cut my mile time down from 14:56 to 13:52. Every day I am running just around 2.5 miles..next week I will be upping it to help get ready for my first 5K. That is a HUGE accomplishment and I will shout it from the Highest rooftops..."I am Proud of ME". The app I have on my phone,IMapyMyRun, tracks it all and lets me compare all my workouts, and that helps me stay motivated to beat my own self everyday.
This week a funny little thing happened to me. I decided to pop in and visit one of my dearest friends, Carly. Over the years her family has really just melded into our family, so to say she is just a "friend" is not doing our relationship justice. ANYHOOO....I went to visit her and she came to the door in her sweats, with a smile on her face and said, "I should have texted you before you came over, you wanna work out?" Now how am I gonna say no to her, when I know the girl is one of my biggest cheerleaders and reads my blog? So of course I said sure. Good thing she had a pair of my stretch pants at her house frm one of our evenings of eating too mush and not being comfortable in the original pair pants we had on. What I failed to ask prior to agreeing was, "Hey Carly, what workout are we doing?" BOY WAS I IN FOR IT! She puts in P90X Sculpt...WHAT THE?? I felt like the weight of my behind was gonna blow out my leg muscles...lifting your own booty is a CRAZY workout. Needless to say, we finished it and were so proud of ourselves. Instead of sitting around gabbing while our rugrats played, we worked out and did something our kids were proud of. They were shooting photos of us and everything (I will be posting them below).
This has been a week of change and growth and a whole BOATLOAD of fun for me. I really like running, even though before I actually get out there, I Loathe the idea of doing it. I weigh in at Weight Watchers on Sunday and have forgone the family trip to the first annual "Food Truck Convention" at one of our local casinos. The fam bam will be heading out tomorrow while I finish some Teacher Performance Assessments in peace and quiet. I know I cannot handle going to a place like that without literally gorging myself, so I broke the news to mister yesterday. He was so supportive and said he would even take the little kids with him so I could work in peace...what a good guy. I guess I will keep him around for awhile.
So with that my faithful friends and supporters, I give you another addition of "Confessions".
Kids at the "Free" local trolley that takes you around the city
Moms on the trolley..we had a blast with the kiddos!
Workin' it!
Get it GURRRL!
Are we ALMOST done yet?
If you have not already become an official "follower" of my blog..please take a gander at the right hand side of the page and click it to become one. I know there are those of you reading it, but not official yet. Just make it official already, I am a commitment kinda gal..lets go all the way :) Big SHOUT OUT to LaDyK, Christina Sanders, and miazamora for hookin a sister up...I feel the love flowing in!
On another note, I am thinking about what to tell you all every single day. This week has been filled with fun, surprises and accomplishments for me. I have had a FANTASTICAL break with my own kiddos doing stuff that moms do with their kids: library, park, swimming, movies. I have not had much of an opportunity to do this kind of stuff with them on a regular basis because if I was not working full-time, I was going to school and working full-time (I know, my "Mother of The Year" card was revoked many moons ago). On top of all of this utter enjoyment and fascination with my kids, I have been running (some may call it a slow jog) every day. I have cut my mile time down from 14:56 to 13:52. Every day I am running just around 2.5 miles..next week I will be upping it to help get ready for my first 5K. That is a HUGE accomplishment and I will shout it from the Highest rooftops..."I am Proud of ME". The app I have on my phone,IMapyMyRun, tracks it all and lets me compare all my workouts, and that helps me stay motivated to beat my own self everyday.
This week a funny little thing happened to me. I decided to pop in and visit one of my dearest friends, Carly. Over the years her family has really just melded into our family, so to say she is just a "friend" is not doing our relationship justice. ANYHOOO....I went to visit her and she came to the door in her sweats, with a smile on her face and said, "I should have texted you before you came over, you wanna work out?" Now how am I gonna say no to her, when I know the girl is one of my biggest cheerleaders and reads my blog? So of course I said sure. Good thing she had a pair of my stretch pants at her house frm one of our evenings of eating too mush and not being comfortable in the original pair pants we had on. What I failed to ask prior to agreeing was, "Hey Carly, what workout are we doing?" BOY WAS I IN FOR IT! She puts in P90X Sculpt...WHAT THE?? I felt like the weight of my behind was gonna blow out my leg muscles...lifting your own booty is a CRAZY workout. Needless to say, we finished it and were so proud of ourselves. Instead of sitting around gabbing while our rugrats played, we worked out and did something our kids were proud of. They were shooting photos of us and everything (I will be posting them below).
This has been a week of change and growth and a whole BOATLOAD of fun for me. I really like running, even though before I actually get out there, I Loathe the idea of doing it. I weigh in at Weight Watchers on Sunday and have forgone the family trip to the first annual "Food Truck Convention" at one of our local casinos. The fam bam will be heading out tomorrow while I finish some Teacher Performance Assessments in peace and quiet. I know I cannot handle going to a place like that without literally gorging myself, so I broke the news to mister yesterday. He was so supportive and said he would even take the little kids with him so I could work in peace...what a good guy. I guess I will keep him around for awhile.
So with that my faithful friends and supporters, I give you another addition of "Confessions".
Kids at the "Free" local trolley that takes you around the city
Moms on the trolley..we had a blast with the kiddos!
Workin' it!
Get it GURRRL!
Are we ALMOST done yet?
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
I am doing it!
OK, well since posting my first post the other day, so many things have been going on in my head. I could almost post something here every single hour. I am finding that having a blog about my journey is a HUGE motivator to keep me going. I know that I have posted the FAT pictures and I have told the world that I am doing this, so I guess I have to just do it. I have been jogging about 2.5 miles everyday, and plan to keep that up for a bit. I want to add a little more distance each week, with the idea that I will be able to jog a 5K without walking. I downloaded an app to my phone called "iMapMyRun". It is a free app that tells you how fast you are going, the distance, the route and a WHOLE slew of other data. I really like it because it gives me a way to compare my workouts and it keeps them on file. That way I can tell if I did better one day over another. It is also super awesome to see how far I am running and how fast because it motivates me to push myself just a little harder. It will be great to see how I improve over time. The lucky thing for me is that I am currently student teaching and as long as my day doesn't go until 6pm, I will be home in time to get a run in before it gets too dark. Right now Spring Break is affording me some luxury to just start doing it at my leisure. It is not often that I have this kind of time. I know it will come to an end, but for now I will use it to my advantage.
On another note, yesterday I went down to my grandparent's house and she was making her famous tacos with fried shells, and I knew if I didn't go in prepared, I would cause myself a setback. On my way out the door I grabbed my Tortilla Factory Smart and Delicious tortillas, an apple, banana, and Fiber One bar. These handy little items served to keep me on track for the afternoon while still enjoying some good ol' Nonnie made food :)
Lastly, I wanted to let everyone know that I have decided it is unfair to post fat pictures and not tell you exactly how fat I really am. I am currently on Weight Watchers...LOOOVE! and have been going off and on since September of last year. I get on the wagon and then I get off the wagon. I am gonna stick to the wagon like glue this time because I am letting the world know about it. When I started in September of 2011 I weighed in at 224 pounds and today on the scale it said 210 (down from my picture day weight of 213). This is thee heaviest I have ever been in my entire life, including during all 3 of my pregnancies. What was I thinking?? Weight Watchers is just a program that lets me eat normally, have an adult beverage every once in awhile, and still lose weight. It is not a magic cure by any means, but the support, the community,and the accountability work for me. Every week I will post my weigh-ins from the WW scale so they are balls on accurate, whether up or down I will let you know...I said I won't lie to you and I won't. I know there are many of you ladies out there going through the same thing I am right now, and it will be a journey for all of us. I have begun to follow "Mama Laughlin's" blog and she is sooper inspirational for me, and I will bring you guys stuff from her that I have found particularly motivating.
I am posting pics from my last 2 days to let you know what is going on in my world. 1. Is my food survival kit form going to Nonnie's 2. Is me heading for a run today with the mister (fingerprints on the mirror and all) 3. Is my best water bottle EVER...CONTIGO with a sippy straw. Each bottle is 24 oz. and they go down smooth and quick, which is allowing me to get in almost a gallon of water everyday. Got them at COSTCO in a set of three, I am sure you can find them at one near you.
So until my next post, thank you all for your encouragement and support..it means the WORLD to me. You guys are my team and I appreciate you. If you have not done it already, please click the link on the side to follow me, I feel wayyy more popular that way!
You will see less of me later!
-T-
On another note, yesterday I went down to my grandparent's house and she was making her famous tacos with fried shells, and I knew if I didn't go in prepared, I would cause myself a setback. On my way out the door I grabbed my Tortilla Factory Smart and Delicious tortillas, an apple, banana, and Fiber One bar. These handy little items served to keep me on track for the afternoon while still enjoying some good ol' Nonnie made food :)
Lastly, I wanted to let everyone know that I have decided it is unfair to post fat pictures and not tell you exactly how fat I really am. I am currently on Weight Watchers...LOOOVE! and have been going off and on since September of last year. I get on the wagon and then I get off the wagon. I am gonna stick to the wagon like glue this time because I am letting the world know about it. When I started in September of 2011 I weighed in at 224 pounds and today on the scale it said 210 (down from my picture day weight of 213). This is thee heaviest I have ever been in my entire life, including during all 3 of my pregnancies. What was I thinking?? Weight Watchers is just a program that lets me eat normally, have an adult beverage every once in awhile, and still lose weight. It is not a magic cure by any means, but the support, the community,and the accountability work for me. Every week I will post my weigh-ins from the WW scale so they are balls on accurate, whether up or down I will let you know...I said I won't lie to you and I won't. I know there are many of you ladies out there going through the same thing I am right now, and it will be a journey for all of us. I have begun to follow "Mama Laughlin's" blog and she is sooper inspirational for me, and I will bring you guys stuff from her that I have found particularly motivating.
I am posting pics from my last 2 days to let you know what is going on in my world. 1. Is my food survival kit form going to Nonnie's 2. Is me heading for a run today with the mister (fingerprints on the mirror and all) 3. Is my best water bottle EVER...CONTIGO with a sippy straw. Each bottle is 24 oz. and they go down smooth and quick, which is allowing me to get in almost a gallon of water everyday. Got them at COSTCO in a set of three, I am sure you can find them at one near you.
So until my next post, thank you all for your encouragement and support..it means the WORLD to me. You guys are my team and I appreciate you. If you have not done it already, please click the link on the side to follow me, I feel wayyy more popular that way!
You will see less of me later!
-T-
Sunday, April 1, 2012
Wrote a poem about it. Like to hear it? Here it goes...
This is a poem I wrote for a class last semester that sums up how I have felt in my own little world...
Ode To Size 14
Oh! How I tried
to suck in my gut
to make myself
look lean
and thin
and
NOT FAT.
I would fit into
those size 14 jeans
if it was the last thing I did.
SIZE 14
White-hot determination
gave way to sweaty thighs
that stuck to the fabric
So big and yet
so small
to me
SIZE
14
I yanked
and I pulled
I groaned
and I gasped
I begged the zipper,
“Please, just a little more.
I promise those pancakes
meant nothing to me.”
The zipper sneered at me
and let out a guffaw
loud enough
for the neighbors to hear.
I attempted to silence
the sound
of the zipper’s laughter
by lying down
and sucking it in
just a little more.
14 was the number
that allowed me
to re-enter the world
and not shop
in the, “Big Girl”
section any longer.
My final attack
on those jeans
and their zipper
was relentless.
I forced myself upon them
without their consent
and I liked it.
I liked the way
I could barely move
or speak
or breathe
I
was size 14.
Ode To Size 14
Oh! How I tried
to suck in my gut
to make myself
look lean
and thin
and
NOT FAT.
I would fit into
those size 14 jeans
if it was the last thing I did.
SIZE 14
White-hot determination
gave way to sweaty thighs
that stuck to the fabric
So big and yet
so small
to me
SIZE
14
I yanked
and I pulled
I groaned
and I gasped
I begged the zipper,
“Please, just a little more.
I promise those pancakes
meant nothing to me.”
The zipper sneered at me
and let out a guffaw
loud enough
for the neighbors to hear.
I attempted to silence
the sound
of the zipper’s laughter
by lying down
and sucking it in
just a little more.
14 was the number
that allowed me
to re-enter the world
and not shop
in the, “Big Girl”
section any longer.
My final attack
on those jeans
and their zipper
was relentless.
I forced myself upon them
without their consent
and I liked it.
I liked the way
I could barely move
or speak
or breathe
I
was size 14.
Day One..am I really going to do this?
OK, so I have been inspired to start this journey by a fellow blogger, Mama Laughlin. I have struggled with weight since having children 16 years ago. I have been up and I have been down, and right now I am WAYYYYYYYYYY up. I am not ready to post exactly how far up I am, because of my EGO, and I am sure that after awhile I will get to that point. This is my first blog ever, and I think I am going to actually post it to my FACEBOOK to make myself a bit more accountable. I have never been one to shy away from anything, and this blog is providing me with a challenge. Can I do it? Will I do it? Do I give up this time...AGAIN? I am going to take it one step at a time and journal my accomplishments, failures, and just tell the TRUTH.
If you are reading this and thinking..."I am going to know all about this chick" well you are 100% absolutely right. I am going to begin by posting pics of my big behind from this morning. This hurts and honestly, I have tears in my eyes, and a frog in my throat thinking that I am going to post these pictures; but if I am not accountable somewhere, I won't be accountable anywhere. Please be warned, these pictures are not for the faint of heart!!! I am not small by any stretch f the imagination, but today I begin a journey....and hope I am brave enough to see it through.
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